Monday, June 28, 2010

Hosea

I wonder if it was any consolation to Hosea or to his children to know that they were symbolic of something bigger God was doing in Israel and Judah, rather than just the unfortunate twists, turns and bird doo doo of life coming their way. What they went through in their family life was terrible. Did it help to know it was for a larger purpose or was it just awful to have your dad name you "Not My People"? Or to have your wife keep whoring around after you're married?


Does knowing that God has a purpose in my life make all things bearable?


Does everything fade in comparison to hearing God's loving promises spoken over me in the wilderness?


It has to.


I want to hear and believe God when He says:


"And I will betroth you to me forever. I will betroth you to me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love and in mercy. I will betroth you to me in faithfulness. And you shall know the LORD." (Hosea 2:19-20)



What a difference it would have made in Gomer's life to be made aware of her guilt and shame yet hear these words from God and know Him. To hear promises she may have heard from many men but to know in the deepest part of her that they were true now in a way she'd never imagined.


And how it must have comforted her children to hear from God:


"And I will have mercy on No Mercy, and I will say to Not My People, 'You are my people'; and he shall say, 'You are my God'". (Hosea 2:23)


Hope.


Restoration.


Belonging.


How can I cling to those truths so tightly that I'm not shaken by my insecurities and circumstances? How long must I follow you, Lord, before I truly believe your promises and I say, "You are my God" and know it and mean it?


Come, Lord Jesus, and make it true in my life.



Thursday, June 17, 2010

Humility

He was born into a socially elite family and had the physique of a Greek statue. Good looking, smart and trained to excel in the highest circles, Daniel had it all. Even though he and his peers were forced to live in a foreign country, they were chosen to serve the king and they were treated well: all the choice foods and wines they could consume. And if that wasn’t enough for Daniel’s resumé, God also gave him knowledge, wisdom and insight that put him in a class all by himself. And Daniel never forgot where his blessings came from so he stayed faithful to the dietary and moral standards of his faith, refusing the rich foods the king offered and remaining steadfast in his values, even when it meant his life was in danger. He served at the royal court even when the nation in power changed. King after king took advantage of this gifted man to run his kingdom.


One would imagine a guy like this, who possessed all the most enviable qualities in life, would also be pretty full of himself and might start to believe he deserved all the blessings God sent his way. I would. Not so with Daniel. The stark contrast between Daniel’s character and mine has hit me hard recently. Look at these passages that describe him:



3 Then the king ordered Ashpenaz, chief of his court officials, to bring in some of the Israelites from the royal family and the nobility- 4 young men without any physical defect, handsome, showing aptitude for every kind of learning, well informed, quick to understand, and qualified to serve in the king's palace. He was to teach them the language and literature of the Babylonians. 5 The king assigned them a daily amount of food and wine from the king's table. They were to be trained for three years, and after that they were to enter the king's service.

6 Among these were some from Judah: Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah. 7 The chief official gave them new names: to Daniel, the name Belteshazzar; to Hananiah, Shadrach; to Mishael, Meshach; and to Azariah, Abednego.

8 But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. 9 Now God had caused the official to show favor and sympathy to Daniel… 17 To these four young men God gave knowledge and understanding of all kinds of literature and learning. And Daniel could understand visions and dreams of all kinds.

18 At the end of the time set by the king to bring them in, the chief official presented them to Nebuchadnezzar. 19 The king talked with them, and he found none equal to Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah; so they entered the king's service. 20 In every matter of wisdom and understanding about which the king questioned them, he found them ten times better than all the magicians and enchanters in his whole kingdom.

21 And Daniel remained there until the first year of King Cyrus. (Daniel 1:3-9; 17-21)


Here’s the part I long to emulate in my life. Daniel has an encounter with God after some visions God gives him about the end of time. Heavy stuff, to say the least.


8 So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless. 9 Then I heard him speaking, and as I listened to him, I fell into a deep sleep, my face to the ground.

10 A hand touched me and set me trembling on my hands and knees. 11 He said, "Daniel, you who are highly esteemed, consider carefully the words I am about to speak to you, and stand up, for I have now been sent to you." And when he said this to me, I stood up trembling.

12 Then he continued, "Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them.” (Daniel 10:8-12)


Verse 12 has been resounding in my head for days: “Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them”. Wow.


And the question I can’t answer or shake is this: What kind of daily decisions does it take to commit to understanding God and being humble so that God will come to me and I can have an experience with Him like this?


It seems to me that when God comes to speak to His people, certain characteristics in the encounter are usually present.


1. God’s gives a clear message. It was true with Daniel: God told him the interpretation of his visions. It was true with Jeremiah: God put His words in Jeremiah’s mouth and told him to speak. (Jeremiah 1) It happened with Moses in the desert, Gideon, Isaiah, John and Paul. When God speaks it is clear.


2. The encounter is powerful. All the aforementioned men had dramatic physical responses to God’s voice. They fell on their faces. They trembled. They passed out. They were afraid and overwhelmed. I’m beginning to think this encounter with God is exactly what keeps them humble. And if it’s the only way to have the character God wants to develop in me so His kingdom can be advanced, then bring it on!

3.

There is reassurance. God knows how scary He can be. And rightly so. Lest we forget, He is the Creator of all that is seen and unseen and raised Christ from the dead. Yet He cares for His children and wants intimate and dynamic relationships with them so He comes in power and in love. He tells the trembling, frightened, cowering people He approaches to be strong. To experience peace. And to obey even when it’s going to be hard. When Daniel had been reassured, he recognized the source of his strength and was encouraged to hear and do more. “When he spoke to me, I was strengthened and said, ‘Speak, my lord, since you have given me strength.’” (Daniel 10:19)


To be honest, this concept has raised more questions for me than it has given me answers. What I do know is this: I want to experience God fully. If it means I fall on my face, shaking, sweating, and crying, so be it. I want to be a woman who exudes God confidence, but is humble. The dramatic way in which men like Daniel experienced God is right up my alley. And I catch glimpses of it, but is it greedy to want more and more? I do. Regardless of what He has to tell me in those moments, sensing His powerful presence is enough. I want it to be enough all of the time.


Yet so much of my life doesn’t reflect this.


Powerful, loving Father, come to me. Not because of my righteousness, but because of your mercy. Bring me to my knees, on my face or whatever posture you need to in order to humble me and have me experience you. I come into your presence only because of the sacrifice of Jesus on my behalf. May I never take that gift for granted. Amen.


1 O God, you are my God,

earnestly I seek you;

my soul thirsts for you,

my body longs for you,

in a dry and weary land

where there is no water.

2 I have seen you in the sanctuary 


and beheld your power and your glory. (Psalm 63:1-2)

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Adolescence Isn't Terminal


I just finished reading Kevin Leman's book on raising teenagers. It's called
Adolescence Isn't Terminal (It just feels like it). As I have a 13-year-old son, it seemed an appropriate read and it had been loaned and recommended to me by a friend.


The book is a good mix of anecdotes, statistics and practical advice for building a solid foundational relationship with your kids before and during their teenage years. Dr. Leman is a parent and a counselor who offers a definite conservative worldview, but doesn't come across as preachy. There was only one reference to a particular Bible verse that I remember, but the majority of his premise is definitely centered on a traditional Judeo-Christian values system. Specific topics included how to talk to your kids about sex so they'll have a healthy view of it but abstain until marriage. He also mentions conversations to have with your kids when they don't want to go to church or synagogue with the family.


Overall, I found it helpful to see examples of what is considered normal teenage behavior and what constitutes behavior that should concern or alarm parents.


Aside from the hype over how humorous the stories are and the occasional name-dropping of Dr. Leman's "good friends" in the sports and ministry world, I thought the book was both helpful and encouraging. I would highly recommend it for parents approaching those potentially rocky years of adolescence.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Motivation For Obedience

Ever since I was little I've had a penchant for following the rules and meeting expectations. I'm not a superstar; I just like to know the parameters for any given situation so I can go along. If I'm in charge of some people along the way, so much the better.


Recently I've been pondering the reasons why I obey God. It has to be partially because I'm wired this way. First-born tendencies and all. But there must be more. Much of my life as a Christian I think I've obeyed God in order to protect myself from punishment or negative consequences. I have since discovered that this is neither biblical nor practical. No amount of obedience or hoop-jumping can protect us from life's worst case scenarios. God doesn't operate that way. And while it's true that we can avoid some negative consequences and a healthy dollop of regret by adhering to certain behavioral standards, no amount of Scripture memorization or hours clocked teaching Sunday School is guaranteed to protect me from cancer or an earthquake.


Or someone else's choices.


Often in life we are directly affected by someone else's choices so our behavior only protects us from consequences insofar as we eschew intimate relationships like friendship or marriage. This is also not biblical as our God is deeply committed to relationships.


So if I'm not protecting myself or earning God's love by behaving myself and following all the rules, what's the point?


God Himself is my reward.


When I pursue holiness, boldly facing the ugliest in me and in my circumstances, regardless of how raw they may be, I get God. I hear His voice confirm my identity. I feel His foundational truth seep into the depths of my soul. And I experience peace in His presence, knowing that there are no barriers to our relationship. Everything is out on the table, including my bitterness, my resentment, my unforgiving attitude toward others, and my broken heart and disappointment. And He surrounds me, fills me and leads me into a place of rest for my soul.


It doesn't happen all at once and it's hard work. But faith built over the years reminds me that His unchanging nature and overwhelmingly powerful love for His children will sustain me. His Spirit will intercede for me with words and groans that I can't even express myself. And He will hold me.


New revelation: I obey God because it's the right response. He loves me. Oh, how He loves me. What else can I say? What else can I do but offer this heart, O God, completely to you....



Saturday, June 5, 2010

Friends

These are my friends. Their husbands planted a tree for us and we had lunch. Yes, the water line for our irrigation system got broken, but look at that dogwood! It's in full bloom now and it's gorgeous.


When my sister-in-law died last summer, these families came quickest and hugged hardest. And they just keep loving us so well! They got us this tree as a reminder of things that are beautiful. Things that are vibrant. Things that endure. Life. Friendship. Love.


God has blessed me with friends that laugh and cry with me. They push back on my selfish tendencies so I don't stay the same. They show me all kinds of ways to love people. And they love God with all their hearts. We've celebrated together. We've mourned together. And we've weathered some relational tension from time to time. I am a better wife, mother, and person because of these women. And what kind of a blogger would I be if I didn't give a shout out to my peeps when I'm feelin' the love?


Colleen, Jules, Mel, Muffin - you rock my world! I am thanking God for the blessing of sunshine and friendship today. Amen!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Heart in God's Word

About 15 years ago I repeatedly listened to a cassette (yeah, that's right, a cassette.) of a Christian singer named Steve Wiggins, and one of my favorite songs was called "Eighteen Inches Journey". The premise was that even though it's a short physical distance between our heads and our hearts as body parts, the movement from intellectual assent of truths and assimilating those truths into values that shape our lives is monumental.



"It’s an eighteen inches journey for some men it’s a million miles away", he sings.



This concept has resonated with me recently as I've been reading Psalm 119 over and over again. It's plenty long - 176 verses - and written in second person so it could easily double as a prayer guide. And I've always known it was a great psalm to read and be reminded of the importance of knowing God's Word and following it to be blessed by God in life. But in the past couple of weeks I've been struck by the number of times the psalmist refers to heart and expresses strong emotions in relation to God's laws.



Here are just a few examples:



10 I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands...


11 I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you...


32 I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free...


34 Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart...


111 Your statutes are my heritage forever; they are the joy of my heart...


It got me to wondering about the connection between my head and my heart. Do I have the emotional connection to God and His Word that this psalmist has? Do I love God's Law? Do I grieve at disobedience - mine and others'? Or have I relegated Scripture to a place in my head that wrestles with doctrine but doesn't penetrate my visceral being?


Many people keep God's Word in their heads or in Sunday school or leave it to the preacher on Sunday to figure out. Many people have fairly consistent communication with God during the course of a day, but don't partake of a regular diet of God's truth as a foundation for their musings. If Psalm 119 has revealed anything to me this time around, it's that there is a crucial tension of the extremes necessary for real life change. I must be both grounded firmly in the unchanging, transformational truths of Scripture AND connected to God on an emotional level to fully experience my relationship with Him. It's not a balance to find in the middle - it's about living life experiencing the absolute outer limits of each.


And this psalm reveals clearly a connection between a heart that knows, seeks, and loves God and His Word and behavior that reflects that relationship. The author doesn't just talk about jumping through the right religious hoops to fit into a social group. He isn't concerned with his reputation in the spiritual community. And his priority is not to memorize Scripture to show off or point out others' flaws. He is single-mindedly and wholeheartedly pursuing a relationship with God. His passion for God is reflected in his love for God's law.


My favorite verse in this epic psalm is verse 97:


Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long.


I want more than anything to be in a place in my life where I am exuberant and spontaneous in my desire for the Bible. I want to love God's law because I love its author. I want it to inform my thoughts and actions. I want it to seep from my head to my heart and take deep, deep root. Like the psalmist, I want to say with confidence that God's Word is the joy of my heart, my heritage forever, and the very thing that tethers me with love to my Father in heaven.


"You are good, and what you do is good; teach me your decrees." (119:68) I want to know your statutes because I know enough about you to know that anything that's yours, Lord, is good. And I want it. Bring it on.




• How do you feel about God's Word? Not what do you think, but how do you feel?


• Take a segment of this psalm and meditate on it this week, asking God to reveal wonderful things in His Law as you seek Him and open your heart to Him.

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